The River (considering risk, procrastination, and stagnation)

Today, in class, we listened to "The River" by Garth Brooks. It's one of my simile/metaphor/theme lessons I do pretty much every year...but it's a good one. We listen to the song, make note of the literary devices and rhyme pattern, discuss the metaphors, and establish a list of possible themes, searching for textual support for our ideas.

Every year, though, it seems, the lesson comes on a day when I especially need the reminders that it brings.

You know a dream is like a river
Ever changin' as it flows
And a dreamer's just a vessel
That must follow where it goes
Trying to learn from what's behind you
And never knowing what's in store
Makes each day a constant battle
Just to stay between the shores...and

I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry

Too many times we stand aside
And let the waters slip away
'Til what we put off 'til tomorrow
Has now become today
So don't you sit upon the shoreline
And say you're satisfied
Choose to chance the rapids
And dare to dance the tide...yes

I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry

There's bound to be rough waters
And I know I'll take some falls
But with the good Lord as my captain
I can make it through them all...yes

I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry

Yes, I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
'Til the river runs dry

___________

"Trying to learn from what's behind you
And never knowing what's in store
Makes each day a constant battle
Just to stay between the shores..."

Indeed. I am not a lover of the unexpected, nor am I very spontaneous. Quite the opposite really, I'm a neurotic over-planner, sometime spending way more time planning for things than actually doing them. In an odd way, I often find the planning more fun than the doing. I know...I'm weird. Not knowing stresses me out, so in way, it is sort of a battle to keep my mental equilibrium amidst all the shifts and hiccups of daily existence.

"Too many times we stand aside
And let the waters slip away
'Til what we put off 'til tomorrow
Has now become today..."

This sentiment is all too characteristic of my life. I spend a lot of time watching the water rather than diving in, always more worried about being careful than experiencing things that sometimes frighten me. And "procrastination" is one of my less wonderful, yet abundant qualities. I've put so many things off that no number of tomorrow's would be enough to accomplish them. 

"So don't you sit upon the shoreline
And say you're satisfied
Choose to chance the rapids
And dare to dance the tide..."

Guilty as charged. To the point that I'm almost ashamed. How many times have I talked myself out of doing something because there are a million excuses or it'd be easier to just "not?" I trick myself into believing I'm satisfied with a lot of things because it's just less complicated to accept life as it is than trying to change it. So much less to lose, or so it seems. In all actuality, there's a lot more to lose by being stagnant and dissatisfied, even if it's only subconsciously. But, risk is also a tough prospect when it might affect others...say, a family. So, risk for a wife and a mother (or husband and father) is more of a luxury than it is for people with only their own needs to consider. It doesn't take it off the table, however. Having other people's needs to consider doesn't make risk less necessary; it just makes it more complicated, and sometime harder to justify.

"There's bound to be rough waters
And I know I'll take some falls..."

No kidding.

So there's that. A lesson for all of us, I suppose. Nothing particularly deep. But, noteworthy, nonetheless.

And since we're on the topic of Garth Brooks...here's a second that really pushes me to consider my daily life....